ouch....it hurts!!

What i read yesterday was like an itch on an old wound, it had just started to heal and i scratched it!! its all foggy and misty in the lands of my heart - covered with her thoughts - i get disorderly obsessed when ever such thing has happened, falling in love has always been painfully sweet, only i would know what's up with me!! i get the urge to stalk, to possess, to attain, to captivate, the person i love - just the way i would be captured, i would want her to be captured by me!!

i'm feeling the same way for her now....world gets drowned n only she rocks - god bless me, i know this too will pass leaving me with this relief of being there, having felt!! but till then....i'm so fucked...arghhhhhhhhhhh :(

An owl feeling out of space in night!!

Last night, I had to live thru this long lonely haunting darkness, more so with in myself – this happened to me after a long long time!! Brida, veronica, Paulo Coelho, Osho, Vivekananda – nobody came to my rescue – I’d to fight it myself which was very hard. I was crying because I had not felt so miserable, like these thumping thoughts in my head, I had eye full of sleep but connection between sleep and eyes was not clicking somehow – I was so hot one second and cold the very next second.
Free spirited life I want to live – travelling globe not worrying about who is holding the fort back home (the fort concept is also dissolving in my brain somehow) - few threads which I’m not able to cut off fully - Job, Parents, Friendships, relationships, my madness to trade security for excitement, New York v/s Noida – They all were making so much noise – noise of laughter, cry, heated discussion, thoughts fighting amongst themselves - I closed my ears and eyes very hard - suddenly I felt that the spirit from my body leaving me n watching this body lying down suffering to fight haunting thoughts, crying….finally spirit became the air around, air there in the sky - I felt I was floating –I felt so relieved, sleep and mind shook hands.